That night was different, alone in my room, away from the city crowd, dim lights and cool breeze, the night was full of promises. The night was haunting and a web of illusions in front of my eyes sometimes bringing smile on my face and sometimes tears rolling down my eyes. And, something very musical playing on my laptop…
“Mera kuchh saamaan tumhaare paas padaa hai
saawan ke kuchh bheege bheege din rakhhe hain
aur mere ik khat mein liptii raat padii hai
vo raat bujhaa do
meraa vo saamaan lautaa do ..”
Alone in my room, I had a tale to tell, tale of my life, a tale of someone whose absence in my life has made it a standstill.I feel like getting marooned in an island of loneliness. Nothing has crippled me so much as the memories of these 5 months. The sea was violent, full of energy, the moments splashing my mind and making me wet and suddenly its calm now. It’s a barren desert now and me like a wanderer looking for nectar to quench my thirst for love, tranquility and happiness. Those memories of 5 years which I always used to cherish have certainly vanished in these 5 months.
You promised me that it would just be a game of hide and seek to which I readily agreed, but then, the reality was painful. I hopelessly searching you and trying to win your heart, but by then, you had left me.And, this dark night like a witch doing some magic on me and perhaps, it’s hallucination and I can feel you near me. The night is long, really long, as I can see the images of those 5 years moving infront of me and I don’t know how to react to it. A mixed emotion and a bit of fear is gripping me tight, fear of losing the memories again, fear of the night getting ended, fear of the promise being broken by the night, fear of you again getting vanished…
Let me close my eyes and even if it’s just an illusion, let it be. I don’t want to wake up and face the ugly face of reality only to find you not besides me.Let me live a dream which is worth than a life…
