In a candid conversation with my friend, I discovered that Mumbai is not a city to stay. Four months back, when I heard the news of my relocation to Mumbai, there was a mixed reaction in me. I was happy going to my friends and sad that I will be another useless addition to the innumerable count of people in Mumbai. Though the city life of this tinsel town fascinated me, but the change of reaction was quite surprising to me. In these four months, life took a drastic U- turn and I confronted with a lot of things which made me realize that Mumbai is not that bad if you are ready to embrace both sides of the human emotion with equal fervor.
Landing in Mumbai made me feel that life is nothing more than a marathon. You just need to run endlessly with a mask on your face so that your friends or people don’t recognize you when you knowingly take a wrong turn. “When money talks, bullshit walks!!” is a favourite quote of my dearest friend and I follow it religiously. It’s not bad to taste the bullshit for a change when the city admires you for doing so. So, I had my own share of bullshit. Though I have been warned a lot of times by my friends, still the ordeal always fascinated me. To have the best, be in the best and to have the worst, still be in the best. Because, the BEST are neither questioned nor caught.
The things which seemed sweet suddenly became sour. Relationship started getting burdened. The city doesn’t spare anyone nor did it spare me. The pain and anxiety which I experienced in Pune because of staying away from my friends doesn’t exist anymore. I am perfectly ready to leave behind the relationships which I termed once as “Friendship for Lifetime”. Mumbai has certainly been instrumental in changing some of the feelings which I had for the people whom I always cared. err.. Caring have become suffocation, endless talks have become arguments and admirations have become accusations. No doubt, after a certain point of time, you eyes even denies sparing tears and what ultimately remains is loneliness. And, if you ask me how it feels being a loner, then my answer is “I am very happy and truly enjoying Mumbai!!!!”……
