Wednesday, March 5, 2008

First ENCOUNTER with LIFE

Though I had seen 22 summers but the summer which I spent in my college showed me something which was truly remarkable. The rendezvous was truly enlightening. Rendezvous was not with my roomies or with my mentors, but it was with a very experienced figure, a figment of my imagination but still very influencing called LIFE. Well, I could easily give a human form to life as I spent the most of my time with it. And, that happened only because of certain circumstances which made me realize one very important thing that it’s not easy to take all your loved ones along with you. The journey I took did not have the same destination for others. I did make an attempt of changing the identity of people whom I call friends to someone “Unknown” in my mind and believe me the output was mesmerizing. I was unbiased and the decisions taken impacted a lot on me. It taught me the whole cycle of human relationship. It helped me come out of the cocoon where I used to be in a state of grief and despair. The meeting did not happen in the cozy room of my hostel but in unusual places, sometimes besides the roads in lonely nights, terrace of my college and staircases of the temples. Being alone I could easily question myself and make life as a catalyst for my answers. The biggest mistake I committed was naming relationship as obsession, a lifetime commitment which needs to be fulfilled only with honesty and dedication among two people. How wrong was I!!!! Life made me understood that relationship is a like a river which is never stable, life has put pebbles to control the flow of relationship. A steady relationship is nothing more than a theoretical term. The one whom I made a catalyst brought the maximum effects in a relationship. Emotional breakdown, possessiveness, longing for a person, temporary depart affects a relationship a lot. The more we are attached, the more we suffer. It’s true that if you want a person besides you, leave him/her free. If he comes back to you, he is yours and if he does not, he was never yours. May be life has designed everyone’s survival in a matter not to affect each other’s lives. Being so close to my mother, still I have been living away from her from the last 3.5 years which was perhaps impossible when I used to stay with her. Priorities define a relationship. The day priorities changes, relationship changes too. We all are here to work for a purpose. And, even I went to Pune with a purpose too…..But, did I succeed??? May be its too early to say.